the thought that changed

it's never too late to be who you might have been - George Eliot

We changed because of life, because of desperation, because of the funniest of things and even because of God. No matter what are the grounds, change is the law of life. Undeniably. Life needs to vary. For good obviously. Myself, for instance. It didn’t take me long before I realised, i need to change. My determination to change was indeed without waiting any longer. I’ve told my other half and he was so pleased with my intention and supported me all the way.

The day when i’ve become conscious it took me long to finally deliberated my decision. It took my 24 hours. The longest day of decisions of my life.  I’ve told my mum and sister and my closest friends and they were without a doubt very supportive. Who would not? I can’t imagine how the 5 minutes decision lead me to the final decision to change the real me. It was when i got back from the office and decided to go out that night, and that was when I came to a decision to wear hijab. That was it. Alhamdulillah. I thank God for the choice I had made.

As told by my bestie, Syukur for the opportunity knocked on my door that made me understand that life had wanted me to change. And now I know, what did my bestie prayed for me during our solat throughout the ‘being me’ conference. She prayed that I would wear hijab one day. Thank you bestie. I know you will always pray for a better me. I’ve cried during my first night emigrate to a better me. What could i ask more from You, other than the night, when I was touched and weep talking to the people who loves me so much. I had changed.

It will be a long journey for me. I am not initially prepared for anything at all, but I am preparing for better or worst. I wish for a soundly passage in my life. This is the 4th day. And that day 4 September 2012 will always be the day that I learn by heart.

the new me!

dan mereka-mereka ini saya sayang!


this is life

Change is the law of life. 
And those who look only to the past or present are certain to miss the future.

Terima Kasih ya Allah kerana memberi hamba mu ini peluang untuk berubah ke arah kebaikan. Syukur Alhamdulillah.

It was last night, a sudden, 4 September 2012. A moment i will always remember.

yours truly.

when the time nearly arrives

The more you do the things you’re most afraid of doing, the more life opens up. 
Embrace your fears and your fears will embrace you.

I think it’s about time. It will be any soon now. Insyaallah. Dear God, please funnel me of any things in life. For You are the one could pass me to happiness.

yours truly.

Hitch official

You have to think anyway, so why not think big?

After a while of having his own office at home, the Hitch new office is now in manoeuvre. Not quite finish yet with all the IDs but it has been all complemented now. A small doa selamat and yassin recital was well thought-out by a small group of his close friends and mil’s family yesterday. Alhamdulillah. The office is now near to home. Happy working at a new place dear!

His room. Gonna be his new other-place-to-sleep from now on!

Part of being a winner is knowing when enough is enough. 
Sometimes you have to give up the fight and walk away, 
and move on to something that's more productive.
- Donald Trump

isn’t it lovely?

My heart always melted to see this kind of sight. They fought and make up almost every hour. The motherhood inside me would feel bless for all the love surrounds me. My other half just can’t resist any of the kids’ request eventhough he’s too exhausted. And the kids, seems not to be tired at all. This is all that I have.

This is what I would fight for, my love and my family.

rapunzel or snow white?

After a long while, I have decided to cut my hair short. A shoulder length it is. Earlier before, Munchkin was a bit skeptical of yours truly whenever i pony-tailing my hair or even made a ‘sanggul’ to accessorize my hair. She just doesn’t like me in any look of short hair. She will definitely shouted at me saying ‘takkkk cantikkk’ everytime she saw me in a short-hair-looked. She just doesn’t like it. She will always said things like, girl kena rambut panjang mcm rapunzel! Heh.

So the day i decided to cut my hair, it was during office hour. I went back as usual and she was a bit surprised to see me in my new fresh look. She didn’t want to talk to me, it was almost an hour she’s a bit furious at me. Later that night, my other half was talking to her; comforting her of my decision to cut my hair. And i’ve heard he said to her “takpela mami rambut pendek, bukan semua princess rambut panjang, damia rapunzel sbb rambut panjang, mami princess snow white” (ohhh i seeee, snow white kan rambut pendek) haha. Good one pa! And so, she was okay later then.

this is yours truly with the longest hair ever;

and the fresh new look for hari raya 😉










Be who you are and say what you feel, 
because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.  
~Dr. Seuss

Eid Mubarak

Hari raya was indeed tiring but full of contentment. We had not been back to Kota Bharu since more than half year and the trip balik kampong this time around, really made my day.  Like any other trip, we have flown back to KB. It was 2 days before Hari Raya. Well too sad and mad to tell but before the trip to KB, the first time ever, I have felt setback with my baju raya. It was truly disappointing. This is what happened when you too rely on someone that you called a friend, and it end up being way below standard. Anyway, thanking Matase Sutera who always being there even on last minute call. Suka sangat my 2nd day raya nye baju. Matase’s design was undeniable beauty as heaven can say! Period. Thanks Kak Mainy for always be there for me. It’s true when you told me that we have a beautiful relationship. Without a doubt.

I am really too lazy to write a lengthy entry. Let me give you a snapshot. Raya – umah abah – balik kg jelawat – umah mama – Thailand – Sungai Padi – Narathiwat – Kota Bharu – Kubang Kerian – Seri Cemerlang – and what not. We then flew back to KL on 3rd day raya, at night.

And this was how our Raya went well in Kelantan.

malam raya ;

memilih dan mengambil baju raya;

hari raya pertama – ketiga

raya ketiga, malam. reached KL already.

p/s we’ll be back Kota Bharu!


For all the bad and goods in life,
i would like to take a second of my life 
to say i'm sorry for all my wrong doings
that might offended anyone of you in any slightest way.